It's almost saddening that this summer is finally coming to a close. It feels like almost yesterday that I was incoherently waving a beer in the air and spraying a pressure washer at everyone on Nick's upstairs balcony.
As many of you know, last year I started my first year at the Cleveland Institute of Art. Previously, I attended Tri-C, which was only a mile from my home, and allowed me to gather credit after precious credit towards my transfer to Kent State University. 3 years later I completely changed my mind, convincing myself that a Graphic Design major was obviously 'bullshit' and decided to branch out, since Tri-C was offering me the complete opposite of a challenge. Anyways, I'm one of the oldest "sophomores" at the CIA, since I transferred so late, but I'm so glad I did. So glad.
I'm finally in my second year, and after throwing darts at my would be major, I decided that Illustration seemed like the major for me. I've had teachers tell me specifically that I should be a painter, or a "drawing major," or a "TIME major," or an "Industrial Designer" but my problem lies in the fact that I want to do everything, but likely can't. I love drawing, I've even gotten to the point where I can start to see that I have a style all my own, which I'd like to develop. Same goes for Design. Same for film and video. I know what I'm doing in so many ways, but I'm willing to do whatever it takes to learn to be the best. And for as much as much talent as I hoard by locking myself away for hours at a time, restarting projects numerous times before satisfying myself, I'm looking to step it up and incorporate my, well, brain, into my artwork finally. I mean, I have been all this time, but I feel that I can really create a hybrid of the nonsense that goes on in my head with what I lay down in ink, or whatever. I'm not even sure if that makes sense.
Essentially, I'm just trying to one up myself and stand out from the pack. It's unbelievable how different I am, in thought and process from the students in my "grade" (second year). It's honestly like I'm from a different planet. They like like to draw with Wacom tablets! Draw with them. I'm really nervous about the future, seriously, but I think that with the right determination and the motivation I already possess, I'll do something about it. Maybe, maybe not. But most likely, yea.
And so it begins, this Monday. "Drawing from Imagination" from 9:30 - 4 :30 and "Advanced Video" from 5:30 - 10. This will obviously be a long day. What blows is that I practice with my band Sunday nights, usually until 2 am. This'll change, we'll practice earlier, no thanks to the Browns, who are playing some primetime games this year.
